Could one aspect of repentance be learning to ask different questions, even different kinds of questions?
"The Lord's majesty is also worshiped with dampened and soft voices. If thoughts are only sounding there, it causes such a clamour that God can hear it Himself in heaven."
(Sadly, I've lost the attribution info! I hope it turns up. But the quote is so wonderful, I couldn't resist including it.)
Might it be possible to regard the perilous, the provisional, the incremental, the perplexing, and the paradoxical/ambiguous/painfully unresolved as allies rather than as enemies?
This morning it occurs to me that the rawness and damage of defeat are more praiseworthy than the smooth surfaces and "successes" of the unchallenging familiar.
In practical terms, what does this mean ? It might mean that I should cut back on complaining for one reason only: it erodes my zest for holy adventure in all of the realms of experience, from the most macrocosmic to the high and windy mountain chasms of the "merely" momentary.
"My hunch is that about 5 percent of what we think we know about God (our theology) is genuinely helpful in our pursuit of holiness. As for the rest, I've a sneaking suspicion it's a clever human plot for sidestepping the divine will," writes Mike Mason in his book The Mystery of Children. "Ever since Augustine much of Western Christianity has been built upon rational, propositional truth. But children have little use for carefully reasoned logic. They sense that truth by nature is not propositional, it is alive... Offering children rational truth instead of the real thing is like trying to pay off the Mafia with play money."