Wednesday, June 11, 2008

"Not As The World Gives"?

Jesus said, "Peace I give unto you, My own peace I leave with you, not as the world gives do I give unto you."

What is the peace that the world gives, and how is it different from Jesus' peace?

For one thing, in the world's system, you are allowed to be peaceful only to the extent that you are "right." You have to be not merely vigilant, then, but hypervigilant, and not merely competent, but hypercompetent, because you're more or less on your own.

And as well as having at all times the right opinions, mindset, knowledge, and understanding, you yourself must be right, as defined by the culture that surrounds you. In the memoir Operating Instructions, writer Anne Lamott quotes her friend the priest Tom Weston on the five rules of being alive in America:

"The first rule is that you must not have anything wrong with you or anything different. The second rule is that if you do have something wrong with you, you must get over it as soon as possible. The third rule is that if you can't get over it, you must pretend you have. The fourth rule is that if you can't even pretend, you shouldn't show up. You should stay home, because it's hard for everyone else to have you around. And the fifth rule is that if you are going to insist on showing up, you should at least have the decency to feel ashamed....I decided that the most subversive, revolutionary thing I could do was to show up for my life and not be ashamed."

By contrast, I think of Paul's description of the Christian community in Corinth:

"Brothers and Sisters think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many of you were influential; not many of you were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.


Monday, June 9, 2008

In Praise of Risk

"Nothing in this world is truly motionless, and I suspect nothing in the next world is, either. We human beings think in terms of perfect ends, but I doubt that God thinks that way. I have a hunch that God has a lot more to do with tender beginnings than with efficient ends....

...We choose safety over freedom; we entrench ourselves in inertia. We dull and occupy ourselves so completely that we stifle our desire, anesthetize our yearning...This does not remove us from the ongoing birth of creation, but it deadens us to it...

... Love does not permit homeostasis to be the end of things. If we so choose, whatever stability we have can be the source of endless beginnings. Our equilibrium can be gestation rather than stagnation. Homeostasis can be the place where we wake up to our yearnings, however painful, and claim them as our own. We can choose to follow our desires for more than what is instead of more of what is. We can say yes to the invitation of love and begin to open up and reach out again. Every time we say yes we upset our stability. We sacrifice our serenity. We risk our safety. We become vulnerable to being hurt. And creation shines more brightly."

The Awakening Heart by Gerald May

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Counterintuitive...

Richard Rohr writes, "Don't go after your sin directly, or you will only confirm your stance and your willfulness." For instance, if your sin has to do with an inordinate need for control, you will automatically try to fight it from a controlling stance and with a controlling style. His cowriter Dietrich Koller writes, "In the transformational work of repentance one doesn't strive for ideals, but discerns spirits...[it] is the work of grace alone. It is comparable to the seeds of the kingdom of God, which grow by themselves. It comes about 'automatically,' which is the word used by the Greek text of Mk. 4:28 to mean 'self-growing' What we can and must do is remove the thorns and thistles by continually interrupting ...our false pattern...The idealist strives for sublime ideals--and comes to grief on them. The work of spiritual development for transformational repentance does not blindly become enslaved to the ideals, but perserveres in sober alertness, before which the spirits unmask themselve...

These false 'pattern-spirits' have no real creative work; they can only exaggerate or distort our holy gifts. Anything can be distorted--and for a long time we won't even notice it, because the sheer activism of our pattern has put us to sleep. With the charism of the 'discernment of spirits' we engage in diagnosis: Am I now ruled by genuine pride or false pride? Authentic self-love or narcissism? Spiritual knowledge of guilt of neurotic guilt-feelings? ...The spirit of subservience or grown-up obedience? ...Genuine tolerance of suffering or cowardly conformism...?"
The Enneagram: A Christian Perspective

Friday, June 6, 2008

One Author's Portrayal of What It Might Have Felt Like To Be Jesus

From Anne Rice's The Road to Cana:

"'Mother,' I said. 'There are things I know, and things I don't know. Sometimes knowledge comes to me unexpectedly--in moments of surprise. Sometimes it comes when I'm pressed, and in my sudden answers to those who press me. Sometimes, this knowledge comes in pain. Always, there's the certainty that the knowledge is more than I will let myself know. It's just beyond where I choose to reach, just beyond what I choose to ask. I know it will come when I have need of it. I know it may come, as I said, on its own. But some things I know certainly and have always known. There's no surprise. There's no doubt.'"

(then a few paragraphs later:)

"'There come these moments....these heart-breaking moments when we first feel joy and sadness intertwined. Such a discovery that is, when grief becomes sweet. I remember feeling this perhaps for the very first time when we came to this place, all of us together, and I walked up the hill above Nazareth and saw the green grass alive with flowers, the tiniest flowers--so many flowers, and all of it, grass and flowers and trees, moving as if in a great dance. It hurt....It hurt...But it was to be cherished...forever.'"

From the Contemplative Outreach Folks, With Disclaimer*

Contemplative Prayer

We may think of prayer as thoughts or feelings expressed in words. But this is only one expression. In the Christian tradition Contemplative Prayer is considered to be the pure gift of God. It is the opening of mind and heart - our whole being - to God, the Ultimate Mystery, beyond thoughts, words, and emotions. Through grace we open our awareness to God whom we know by faith is within us, closer than breathing, closer than thinking, closer than choosing - closer than consciousness itself.

Centering Prayer

Centering Prayer is a method designed to facilitate the development of Contemplative Prayer by preparing our faculties to receive this gift. It is an attempt to present the teaching of earlier times in an updated form. Centering Prayer is not meant to replace other kinds of prayer: rather it casts a new light and depth of meaning on them. It is at the same time a relationship with God and a discipline to foster that relationship. This method of prayer is a movement beyond conversation with Christ to communion with Him.

Theological Background

The source of Centering Prayer, as in all methods leading to Contemplative Prayer, is the indwelling Trinity: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. The focus of Centering Prayer is the deepening of our relationship with the living Christ. It tends to build communities of faith and bond the members together in mutual friendship and love. “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10

Wisdom Saying of Jesus

Centering Prayer is based on the wisdom saying of Jesus in the Sermon on the Mount:
“...But when you pray, go to your inner room, close the door and pray to your Father in secret. And your Father, who sees in secret, will repay you.” Matthew 6.6 (New American Bible)
It is also inspired by writings of major contributors to the Christian contemplative heritage including John Cassian, the anonymous author of The Cloud of Unknowing, Francis de Sales, Teresa of Avila, John of the Cross, Thérèse of Lisieux, and Thomas Merton.

Centering Prayer Guidelines

Choose a sacred word as the symbol of your intention to consent to God’s presence and action within. (cf. Open Mind, Open Heart, chap. 5)
The sacred word expresses our intention to consent to God’s presence and action within.
The sacred word is chosen during a brief period of prayer asking the Holy Spirit to inspire us with one that is especially suitable for us.
Examples: God, Jesus, Abba, Father, Mother, Mary, Amen.
Other possibilities: Love, Peace, Mercy, Listen, Let Go, Silence, Stillness, Faith, Trust, Yes.
Instead of a sacred word a simple inward glance toward the Divine Presence or noticing one’s breath may be more suitable for some persons. The same guidelines apply to these symbols as to the sacred word.
The sacred word is sacred not because of its inherent meaning but because of the meaning we give it as the expression of our intention and consent.
Having chosen a sacred word, we do not change it during the prayer period because that would be to start thinking again.
Sitting comfortably and with eyes closed, settle briefly and silently introduce the sacred word as the symbol of your consent to God’s presence and action within.
“Sitting comfortably” means relatively comfortably so as not to encourage sleep during the time of prayer.
Whatever sitting position we choose, we keep the back straight.
We close our eyes as a symbol of letting go of what is going on around and within us.
We introduce the sacred word inwardly as gently as laying a feather on a piece of absorbent cotton.
Should we fall asleep upon awakening we continue the prayer.
When engaged with your thoughts, return ever-so-gently to the sacred word.
“Thoughts” is an umbrella term for every perception, including sense perceptions, feelings, images, memories, plans, reflections, concepts, commentaries, and spiritual experiences.
Thoughts are an inevitable, integral and normal part of Centering Prayer.
By “returning ever-so-gently to the sacred word” a minimum of effort is indicated. This is the only activity we initiate during the time of Centering Prayer.
During the course of Centering Prayer, the sacred word may become vague or disappear.
At the end of the prayer period, remain in silence with eyes closed for a couple of minutes.
The additional 2 minutes enables us to bring the atmosphere of silence into everyday life.
If this prayer is done in a group, the leader may slowly recite a prayer such as the Lord’s Prayer while the others listen.

The Guidelines

Choose a sacred word as the symbol of your intention to consent to God’s presence and action within.
Sitting comfortably and with eyes closed, settle briefly and silently introduce the sacred word as the symbol of your consent to God’s presence and action within.
When engaged with your thoughts*, return ever-sogently to the sacred word.
At the end of the prayer period, remain in silence with eyes closed for a couple of minutes.
*Thoughts include body sensations, feelings, images, and reflections

Some Practical Points

The minimum time for this prayer is 20 minutes. Two periods are recommended each day, one first thing in the morning and the other in the afternoon or early evening. With practice the time may be extended to 30 minutes or longer.
The end of the prayer period can be indicated by a timer which does not have an audible tick or loud sound when it goes off.
Possible physical symptoms during the prayer:
We may notice slight pains, itches, or twitches in various parts of the body or a generalized sense of restlessness. These are usually due to the untying of emotional knots in the body.
We may notice heaviness or lightness in our extremities. This is usually due to a deep level of spiritual attentiveness.
In all cases we pay no attention and ever- so-gently return to the sacred word.
The principal fruits of the prayer are experienced in daily life and not during the prayer period.
Centering Prayer familiarizes us with God’s first language which is silence.

Points for Further Development

During the prayer period, various kinds of thoughts may arise.
Ordinary wanderings of the imagination or memory.
Thoughts and feelings that give rise to attractions or aversions.
Insights and psychological breakthroughs.
Self-reflections such as, “How am I doing?” or, “This peace is just great!”
Thoughts and feelings that arise from the unloading of the unconscious.
When engaged with any of these thoughts return ever-so-gently to your sacred word.
During this prayer we avoid analyzing our experience, harboring expectations, or aiming at some specific goal such as:
Repeating the sacred word continuously.
Having no thoughts.
Making the mind a blank.
Feeling peaceful or consoled.
Achieving a spiritual experience. (cf. Open Mind, Open Heart, chap. 6-10)

Ways to Deepen Our Relationship with God

Practice two 20-30 minute periods of Centering Prayer daily.
Listen to the Word of God in Scripture and study Open Mind, Open Heart.
Select one or two of the specific practices for everyday life as suggested in Open Mind, Open Heart, chap. 12.
Join a weekly Centering Prayer Group.
It encourages the members of the group to persevere in their individual practices.
It provides an opportunity for further input on a regular basis through tapes, readings, and discussion.
It offers an opportunity to support and share the spiritual journey.

What Centering Prayer Is and Is Not

It is not a technique but a way of cultivating a relationship with God.
It is not a relaxation exercise but it may be refreshing.
It is not a form of self-hypnosis but a way to quiet the mind while maintaining its alertness.
It is not a charismatic gift but a path of transformation.
It is not a para-psychological experience but an exercise of faith, hope and selfless love.
It is not limited to the “felt” presence of God but is rather a deepening of faith in God’s abiding presence.
It is not reflective or spontaneous prayer, but simply resting in God.

For information and resources contact:
Contemplative Outreach, Ltd. 10 Park Place - P.O. Box 737 Butler, NJ 07405

http://www.centeringprayer.com/methodcp.htm
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* My Disclaimer: I don't do this enough! I am always looking for loopholes and shortcuts...But anyway, I find this process of always gently returning to be helpful in church re. distracting thoughts.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

No Theory

Yesterday, I came across this poem by David Ignatow:

No Theory

No theory will stand up to a chicken's guts
being cleaned out, a hand rammed up
to pull out the wiggling entrails,
the green bile and the bloody liver;
no theory that does not grow sick
at the odor escaping.

At first when I read it, I thought, yeah, that's right, Christianity and all theodicies represent only the theoretical, and therefore cannot begin to speak to the suffering in this world. Reality, by its very starkness, trumps everything that has to do with faith.

But then I thought, wait, what about the body and blood of Christ? Nothing is less theoretical and more visceral than incarnation.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Thoughts II

By watching parents in church with their small children, I think I am learning a little about how to deal with my own frenetically wandering thoughts; I've noticed that when the children "act up," the parents are very patient with them, not harsh, and just keep gently repositioning them, so to speak (occasionally, a parent will takes a child out of the service for a moment and then bring the him/her back). For the littlest of children, the fruits of this process are not even, or are barely, in sight, yet the parents don't abandon their kind steadiness and consistency. It doesn't seem to be about punishment at all, but rather, about a slow and extremely incremental training process, which reminds me of the title of Eugene Peterson's book, A Long Obedience in the Same Direction: Discipleship in an Instant Society. And it makes me think of a verse from a hymn I haven't heard or sung for years:

Then we shall be where we would be,
Then we shall be what we should be,
That which is not now, nor could be,
Then shall be our own.

So I see that it is counterproductive to scold, fight, argue, or engage with unhelpful thoughts during worship, but rather, I need to simply, even gently reposition my attention, and proceed from there.

And even thoughts that seem to be--and probably are--worth following/developing, can be filed away for later, since the purpose of the service is Presence, not analysis or cogitation.

All of this feels rather grounding. I think of the Peterson translation of Ps. 131:

"I've kept my feet on the ground.
I've cultivated a quiet heart."

This mention of the ground makes me think of how we stand in worship and prayer, and how "grounding" it is.

Peterson's translation continues:

"Like a baby content in its mother's arms,
my soul is a baby content."

However, I haven't seen this verse translated in that way in other versions, where it's always a "weaned child," connoting, perhaps, a toddler. Indeed, nursing infants and babes-in-arms don't seem to have all that much difficulty in church, generally, since they aren't yet mobile (I vaguely remember that stage of mothering as relatively simple compared to the toddler stage!). This is how the NKJV has it:

"Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul,
Like a weaned child with his mother;
Like a weaned child is my soul within me."

More on this next time...